Monday, June 11, 2007

I Love You Goodbye...

"No love can hurt as much as the love that can never be. And, no thoughts can hurt as much as the thoughts of a love that could have been."

I cannot believe it ended this way. I didn't imagine we will separate our paths on this manner. I think this is the best for the both of us. Not lovers, not even friends.

I stood there in front of her house, trying to comprehend what just happened. All I wanted is to give to her late birthday gift and tell her how I really feel. But instead, she told me the truth. The one thing she wanted to tell me these past few weeks, She wanted me to forget her and move on. For she already forgotten me and removed me from her life. I practically did not exist anymore in her life. I wanted to cry but I can't. I can't describe the pain I felt when she said those words. As I walked away, tears keep falling down and the pain penetrated deep down my soul. Thats it. It's all over, I can't even tell her how I feel. I guess it's too late for that. I lost my love and I lost my friend all at once and there's nothing more I can do..

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

With Tired Eyes, Tired Minds, Tired Souls, We Slept

Does this darkness have a name? This cruelty? This hatred? How did it find us? Did it steal into our lives or did we seek it out and embrace it? What happened to us? That we now send our children into the world like we send young men to war, hoping for their safe return, but knowing that some will be lost along the way. When did we lose our way? Consumed by the shadows, swallowed all by the darkness. Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?

I wasn't prepared of what happened yesterday, maybe, it's too sudden, too fast for me to comprehend.

They have won. The people who hated me won again, this time, they didn't just took my future but my best friend as well. I lost also the person I treated as a mom and also I lost my one true love all in one package. What have I done to deserve this? Why are these things happening? Now all that is left for me are memories, and it only makes the pain stronger..

Sunday, June 03, 2007

The Three Princesses and the Squire

Once upon a time there were three princesses ruling the AMA kingdom. They were Althea, Bellatrix and Ixchel.A squire named Valerius secretly adored these three beautiful ladies and one day decided to tell them how he feel.

The story revolved around Valerius falling in love with Althea, despite their differences, Valerius and Althea became close, during the swimming in Cavite, Valerius realized that he was in love with Althea. Too bad for Valerius, Althea didn't feel the same way, series of fights and misunderstandings followed and on December 22, 2006, Valerius finally called it quits and accepted the fact that He and Althea were only just friends. Valerius calls Althea "My Sassy Girl" based on the Korean movie. Every time the song "Don't Cha" by the Pussy Cat Dolls and "Crazy For You" by Sponge Cola were being played, Valerius remembers the good times the both of them spent together.

During the dark times of Valerius, there was a kind princess by the name Bellatrix who comforted him and told him the positive side of things. Valerius and Bellatrix became the best of friends, Valerius officially call Bellatrix "Best Friend" and sometimes Bellatrix calls Valerius "Best Friend" as well, but destiny was cruel to Valerius as the boyfriend of Bellatrix suspected that Valerius' is in love with Bellatrix. Valerius coined the term "Bessy" to hide the word "Best Friend" for Bellatrix' boyfriend is the one and only "best friend" in her life. If it isn't enough, Valerius was deleted form Bellatrix' Friendster friends list and currently is banned from texting, emailing, calling, instant messaging and even talking to his "Best Friend". The squire cannot do anything for the knight is the rightful one for the princess. Thus all the squire had left was the memories of having a wonderful friendship which is now impossible to achieve. Every time the song "Tell me where it hurts" by MYMP and "I Turn to You" by Christina Aguilera were played, All the squire can do is remember the past for he cannot do anything in the present.

Last but not the least, Ixchel, the princess that gave the squire false hope. Deception was the main reason the squire erased the princess in his memory, for the princess secretly has a knight during the time she gave the squire hope. The squire cannot endure the treachery abd decided to forget the princess.

Three different women, One man, all three became a part of his life, but destiny took everything away and left him just the memories. He cannot do anything for he's just a squire.If only the squire became a knight, just maybe, one of the three will become his own princess and they will live happily ever after.